To the Guy

Dear JFTP,

I like you. And there are a few thing you should know…

I don’t need you in my life. But I sure do want you there. I’ve been doing this alone for a long time, and I am 100% prepared to do it alone forever if that’s what it takes. What does that mean for you? I don’t know. I don’t need your money, I don’t need your help, I don’t need you to step in and save the day. The only thing I need from you is honesty, patience, and maybe eventually love.

You should also know that I have let go. Let go of the should have been’s, could have been’s, and what if‘s. I have this single mom thing down to a science, and the bags have been packed and taken out a long time ago. My focus is forward. I can’t do anything about anything that happened yesterday or 20 years ago. I am just hell-bent on making sure that my future is everything it can be.

It probably goes without saying, but my life is hectic. I know that we can have a hell of a good time together, I think we have already discovered that. But having a good time with me sometimes looks so different than having a good time with somebody without kids. We will hit the gym together, then play a pick up game with boys. We will go to the football, basketball, or soccer game before heading out for the night. And we will have to plan dates. That will just give us something to look forward to. 🙂

All that said, I like you. And I think you like me too; you kept picking me even while I wasn’t sure. I really hope that we can give this a real go. I think it could be great.

xo

c

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