Dirty Little Secret

I’ve written about this before. But it’s been a LONG time since I had a night like last night…

I was cooking for work. I was feeling lonely. I needed a hug. So I started looking for it at the bottom of a container of cashew butter. Nope. Maybe atop a (paleo) English muffin? Nope. When it wasn’t there I went to the mixed nuts. Then the carob chips. Nope and no. I worked my way through over a full days worth of calories, still not finding anything to satisfy me.

And this morning here I lay, still feeling sick. 🤢

I don’t let myself get ashamed, angry or frustrated with myself when this happens, it just makes it worse. I know emotion is the root of my binging. I just need to get a handle on those things.

I just have to remember this. It’s all in my head.

Thanks for listening. I’m going to recover and keep living.




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